Word, yo
Well, I talked to rw on the phone... that was nice to be reassured. She doesn't have a comp to use... so, yay. Well, I turned on the tv this morning, ond I saw this song playing... and it hit me. I almost wept. Its a nickelback song (yes Iknow, wordly band)... but don't be so quick to judge the messenger before hearing the message. Its a bout a man who is crying out for God, looking around him and seeing the tradjedies of this vain life, and how what we've done can keep us down without him. You still have to think though (and I think the music video was kinda cool... you'll catch on.). Here are the lyrics... and the song will be at the BOTTOM of the BLOG.
Nickelback
"Savin' Me"
Prison gates won't open up for me
On these hands and knees I'm crawlin'
Oh, I reach for you
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Well I'm terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can't hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I'm callin'
And oh I scream for you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'
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[Chorus:]Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me
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Heaven's gates won't open up for me
With these broken wings I'm fallin'
And all I see is you
These city walls ain't got no love for me
I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And oh I scream for you
Come please I'm callin'
And all I need from you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'
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[Chorus]
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Hurry I'm fallin'
All I need is you
Come please I'm callin'
And oh, I scream for you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'
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[Chorus]
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Hurry I'm fallin'
Sorry
I haven't been on the comp, or the phone, or the tv for the past 3 days. I've just been... thinking. Not just about what I'm gonna eat, or what the next poem I'm gonna write is. It's been so much deeper than that. It's been one question... who am I? If anyone wants to help... go ahead and try, but I know in the end I am the only one who can truely answer this. Oh yeah, btw...
I'm leaving on the 12th instead of the 22nd... so yeah. I haven't heard or communicated with rw since she left from ohio to penn, so I'm a little worried... pray for that. That's it for now.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR-EAT!
Well, no one is here to talk to, and I'm completely bored outta me mind. I don't know, I just wish skool was still goin, and wed. night visitation (and dinner ;) ) But, I'm kinda... lonely. I was reading through some of my past poetry... and I get too emotional about some things. I'm not gay, but I'm not a rock either. Sometimes I wish I was a rock... but then me and rw wouldn't be the same. Well, I won't sign off with a mushy comment, or a cool quote, or even a popular saying. It seems that whatever I post, someone finds something wrong with it... so...I end with this-
(nothing)
A friend, A sister, A helping hand
Wellp, I just woke up (halleluja)... and I decided to dedicate this post to someone other than what you would expect. She's the only girl that I've ever been a friend with, then tried to be her boy-friend (and failed, apparently), and then mended to be able to be closer than what I would expect. She's emotional in the things she does, but yet she's shy and modest when it's needed. She doesn't need a relationship constantly... but she does need a friend frequently. She's a junior becoming a senior next year, and then she's looking at bob jones for a college choice. She laughs at most of my stupid jokes... even the ones I don't laugh at. Well, She is one thing that no other girl could be, and that's not being related to me, but at the same time being a sister to me. Her name... Rachel Acree.
I LOVE YOU IN CHRIST SIS!!!!!!
I thought it was cool...
Ya'll tell em if you think the survey ABOVE is true about me. Especially you rw. I miss you... but I'll leave the rest for email...
cool
Well, above is this kinda dumb... but somehow unbelievably true thing about me... I miss you rw. LAteR to the rest of ya'll. Email me and tell me what you think rw, you of all people should have an opinion on this subject.
Day 1
Well, on thursday I was proclaimed "Preacher boy of the year". Don't worry, I won't let it go to my head, there was only one other p. boy. Anywho's, rw and her family have left to ohio and pa until about the 8th of june. It really stinks for me... but it wasn't my decision to make. Pray that she had a safe trip, and stays close to God, and I'll be happy. I promised her one thing before she left me, and that is "to the best of my ability to be happy". Well guys, I'm workin on it. I'm trying to keep my mind off her... but it's almost impossible, lemme explain. When I woke up this mornin... my mom was watchin tv... and the lady's name there was rebecca. I had just woken up and already the yearning for her comes back. Then I go to watch tv, and I see a show entitled (man the devil likes to mock me)... "Rebecca's garden". Then I went running, and I saw about 17 license plates with the two letters "rw" together. Wow, life this summer is already becoming fantastic!!! Well, the one thing I promised myself is that I wouldn't turn into some of my friends, where if they're 5 minuetes apart from eachother, all they do is pout and talk about the other. Get a life!!! Anyways, just keep rw and her family in your prayers. I love them (especially her) soooooooo much. I'm carrying your love with me rw...
so much... fun
Well, today I didn't have to go to school because I was exempt from testing today. Instead I went to breakfast and got a couple shirts at aeropostale. It was alright, but I missed my sweetheart ;). Well, I don't like to talk about it, but I need prayer from everyone that becca won't have to move. Makes me depressed just thinking about it. No, no, better yet... pray that GOD'S WILL is played out. I love her so...
I'm good
Well, I haven't posted in a while... but I guess I'll make that up here. Wellp, wed. night was really awesome for me. I got to spend some time with becca without idiot interruption, and also got to hang out with dani and sam and becca in the rain. We were soaked, we were cold, we were happy. Well, I was thinkin about my friends... and in bible class (around the second quarter), we had a lesson that was pointing out what kind of friends people could be to us. (hi mom, I see you behind my back, and I love you!!!). There were acquaintances, good friends, close friends, and best friends. I have loads of good friends, anout 4 close friends, and only one best friend. I wrote my best friend a poem, and I hope she loves it. You know who you are, kirei.
You're the one who's by my side
when no one else is there.
You're the one I can always count on,
You always seem to care.
You help me throughthe tough times,
and when I've lost all hope,
You cry with me at sad times,
and laugh at all my jokes.
You never seem to judge me
or ever put me down,
You put a smile on my face,
When ever you see a frown.
You're better than anything I've ever had,
You're more than just the one I care for and tend,
You have a special place in my heart,
That's why your the one I love, my Best Friend.
