Thoughts, ideas, and opinions of Def Jeff

well I've survived so far

2007-01-06T21:52:00.001-05:00

I am officially 16 today... woot wot woot huzzah (yes, wot was on the purpose)

I'm # 1/2... better than #1 because its closer to zero, oh yeah

ultra peepee (ZiM rules)

well I've survived so far

2007-01-06T21:52:00.000-05:00

I am officially 16 today... woot wot woot huzzah (yes, wot was on the purpose)

I'm # 1/2... better than #1 because its closer to zero, oh yeah

ultra peepee (ZiM rules)

2007

2007-01-01T14:39:00.000-05:00

Happy Birthday World, don't spend all your B-day money on candy!!!

think about this

2006-12-27T20:56:00.000-05:00

all people want is to be loved... try it out sometime

yes, this is a very simple post... but when you think about it... have you expressed this concept the same way our Savior, his Father, and the Spirit does for us every moment that we need?
I know I haven't... so me and you- the reader -... lets revolutionize the world, eh?

Love,
sage

its been a while

2006-12-19T23:51:00.000-05:00

I've started to train again. Sparring is fun... as long as its with the right people. Don't stick your head in a melon... even if it does look tasty. Look both ways before you cross the road- uncaringly and nonchalant. If you see a piece of litter trash, pick it up and throw it away... don't put it in your pocket so you can litter later. If you smile too much you might have to frown to neutralize the muscles in your face. Hey look, its that fat kid again, oh no, thats just the mirror.

Hope you've enjoyed a taste of randomness for a change.

I think I might talk with an irish accent at school for the next semester. Anyone second that?

Godbless,
Sage

2006-11-28T19:15:00.000-05:00

some of my best friends don't really blog anymore. And rw and others are never on the comp anymore, so I just don't see the need. Maybe I'll post on thursday. So there.

pray for us... and me.

2006-10-30T21:30:00.000-05:00

My dad left for training yesterday... and he'll comeback at christmas... then leave for war fir a year. Pray for that. Rebecca is experiencing severe headaches and doesn't get much sleep. Pray for that. My mom is super stressed and stuf. Pray for that. I'm streched among these and other more personal topics... pray for that. I want to thank one person that has never failed me, will never fail me, and is always thee to listen... and give advice. He's the PERFECT friend. Thanks, Jesus.

2006-10-19T18:19:00.000-04:00

Yesterday was be and rw's 1 year "anniversary"... I miss you so much sweetheart... and if you wanna critisize or w/e... just go away. I love you rebecca, no matter what people say!

yeah

2006-10-03T21:29:00.000-04:00

Haven't been on in a while. Lots goin on. I'm just trying to find the reason why I was put here... and the search isn't going anywhere. God help me. This blog has two options~ 1. Become a deletion. 2. Become of some worth to someone who reads it. ~ I'm so tired of people leaving comments that show barely interest in the post, I want to start spreading my knowledge, and my ability to write. SOme kid in school thought I was just a stupid crazy bum... because he never had the chance to see the real me... the me that is thoughtful and philosophical, and never sleeps because of the thoughts that flow through me. I'm like no one else, and that's not always good (so don't think I'm prideful). Until next thought...

-Sage

2006-09-18T22:50:00.000-04:00

Lord, pardon me of my Life. In eyes of pain and sorrow it means less than the worm of the sparrow, less than the clippings of the world, less then the grass we walk on. As I try harder and harder to forsake my ways, the ways of my flesh grow stronger and stronger, as I grow weak as the salmon in the grizzly's mouth. Every breath I have taken, it has been in vain, every drop of water I have drunk, only to be drunk in vain, every movement of my body, only to be in the vain depths of demise and discontentment. I need you LORD, to pull me from the gate of my depression and into the light of Your joy. The tears of my heart cease not to dry on my soul, building the mildew of the sad upon my existence. I need you LORD, to pull me from this gate of my own earthly hell and into your comforting spirit. The thoughts of a selfish death ram my head just as hard and fast as the sin that mocks me through out the day, and as I try to forsake these dreams... They always come back to tear me to pieces of a disembodied love, into the trash of mankind. I need you LORD, to lift me out of this world of hurt and woe, and into the home all these days I have been missing.

-The thoughts of my soul that happened to spill on a keyboard

Back

2006-09-10T12:00:00.000-04:00

Well, I got back yesterday around 11:30 a.m from camp, it was ok. I just woke up... and no, I didn't skip church, it's just that my mom and dad both had to work today and I didn't find out until it was too late to call someone. About camp... the activities were great, but the people weren't. Camp made me really think about (in the skool right now) how many true friends I have, and how many only hang otu with me when I'm their last resort or if its convinient for them at the time. I'd like just like for the people who visit this blog to know that most of you are more true to me (and I barely or don't even see you) then the people I see every day... thank you. To be honest, I only have maybe 1 or 2 true friends left in this state... and I'm already losing them. BTW, pray for my dad, he's going to mississippi for 2 months, then afghanistan for another year... please pray hard. Def Jeff.,.,., out.

(())** and {{}} rw...

wOOt for soreness... ;) hehe

with arms wide open

2006-09-03T13:32:00.000-04:00

With Arms Wide Open
Well I just heard the news today

It seems my life is going to change

I closed my eyes, begin to pray

Then tears of joy stream down my face

With arms wide open Under the sunlight

Welcome to this place I'll show you everything

With arms wide open

Well I don't know if I'm ready

To be the man I have to be

I'll take a breath, take her by my side

We stand in awe, we've created life

With arms wide open

Under the sunlight

Welcome to this place I'll show you everything

With arms wide open

Now everything has changed

I'll show you love I'll show you everything

With arms wide open

If I had just one wish

Only one demand

I hope he's not like me

I hope he understands

That he can take this life

And hold it by the hand

And he can greet the world With arms wide open...

This song, as many know, is talking about scott stapp's child being born. I like these kinds of songs for more then one reason. One is that he wrote these lyrics himslef. When a musician just pasys someone to create lyrics for them to sing, it won't even be on the sam level emotionally or musically as the musician who writes his own. See, people like josh groban need to learn how to write, or just shut up. I can't stand thos fakes. Another thing that sticks out is that this actually happened to him, which makes it so great. He's not writing about some make-belief story... this is his LIFE. Well, enjoy the song. *This has been a presentation of Def Jeff' opinion, and His opinion would like to state that if you want to complain about what he's just said, SHOVE OFF*

LETS DO IT NOW!!!

2006-08-28T06:11:00.000-04:00

Well, Thursday during prayer meeting (at my skool) I hope to get as many people into there as possible. We usually have 20-25 people... but I want at least 50 people. Prayer works, immediate or not. Perfect example, a lady named mrs.Mcdonald was driving me home Friday night, and the we had to shut it of and on to roll the windows down. When we shut off the car and went to re-start it... The car wouldn't catch the spark plugs at all (it wouldn't start). She had to go to a reformers unanimous thing that helps addicts with their addiction with the saving power of Jesus Christ. Well, she had to call everyone, and I started to pray. MY basic prayer was that We both knew God's will was to get to where we needed to go, and this was just Satan and his demons' influence trying to stop us. I told Him that if he can move mountains, create life, and be the best Father ever, he could start the car. I looked up, and was rushed by an immediate and content "its alright" feeling. She tried to start the car... And, well, you know the need of the story. The point of this is, that we need to start a revival in my church NOW. Our revival's comin up, and I don't see any point in waiting... And you who aren't in my church, if this doesn't light your fire to do the same, "your firewood is wet"... Later.

amen

2006-08-25T17:13:00.000-04:00

The time that I would usually use over the past couple of days to be on the computer or phone... I've sacrificed for the bible and poetry. I just want to thank you people who pray for me and encourage me... if you saw me right now... (weeping, joyfully). I've for so long taken you people for granted and taken what God's done for us for granted... thats the old me. I am refreshed and have made a couple decisions over the past couple of days. One major one was my relationship with rebeccas mom. Mrs.M... I want to set up a time where I can talk or email you atleast once a week... because I think that if I want to have any kind of positive relationship with your daughter... I want to have an even better relationship with you first. Email me about that, please. And I especially want to thank you rebecca... you've been patient and undertstanding
(for the most part it seems). And one thing I really needed was your support... I really don't know if I got, but if I didn't, I wouldn't mind it in the future. Like I said, I'll explain it to you tonite. I love all of you.

This post is dedicated to God.

Failure is an option

2006-08-23T05:57:00.000-04:00

Last night I failed horribly in a conversation. I feel as if those people that always put me down are right... I don't know... I don't know. I won't be blogging or using the phone for a few days...

not worthy

2006-08-18T06:05:00.000-04:00

Well, I just got done reading franks post, and I'll say something that stuck out even more than his main point (it was a very good point though). He said that "posts that accomplish nothing don't deserve to be read"... most of my posts are just stupid, and I wonder why I get about 3 people to read them. I think I might quit blogging. It just seems like a burden, and anything I do can never be enough for everyone. And then there's the donkeys of the internet that forced me to use comment moderation. And then there's random advertisments, and all that other "mess". Why should I have to deal with this as a 15 year old young man. I think most people from 13 to 17 don't know how much pressure that they can take on and explode in either sin, or breakdown in a mental sense. I don't wanna be like that, I've been there... not fun. I run four blogs as of now- This one, dor and bui, poetry of our souls, and my personal blog. I know its good to be stretched in diffrent ways... but I'm about to be torn. 2 nights ago I had a heated conversation with my mom (not bad o anything) about what love really is. I have grasped only a little corner of it, but thats enough even for me at this stage of my life. I don't care who reads this or why it was read... I miss you rw... I really, really, really do. Well, thank you to all the readers of have read my little stories and random crap, I dedicate this post to ALL of the readers. Have a good life everyone. Jeff Roys........................................................................................................... out.

3 noses?

2006-08-16T06:11:00.000-04:00

Well, its about 6:10 in da morning... and I just wanna sleep. Skool is ok, geometry is just boring. The ride situation is on hold for a few weeks... but I still don't have a permanent one. The one thing I'm afraid of is dropping out for another skool (duh), but after that not being able to come back because my scholarship became void when I left... I'm so scared...

Really need...

2006-08-12T09:50:00.000-04:00

PRAYER. My mom told me when I got home form sam's that if I don't get a ride back and forth to school from november on up... I won't be going to the school anymore. Yeah, I was devestated... but I also know that God put me in grace for a reason, so he will come through. EVERYONE please pray for this, please...

I miss you rw

amen

2006-08-07T20:00:00.000-04:00

I just led my friend stephen to the lord over the phone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AMEN!!! He's in florida right now... I need you guys to pray for the following.
1. That he find a good church
2. That I find a way to get him a bible
3. That he stays strait

This is the first person I've ever lead to the Lord... wow, this is awesome...amen. Thank you God.

"As the feather shall fall"

2006-08-07T10:47:00.000-04:00

Well, I'm waiting for this skool year to start. I need something to do besides use my brain!!! Hehe, naaah... my Mum said I could get a part-time job if I get all b's or better through the first semester... so pray that I stay outta laziness, and that if I do get lazy God spanks me hard to get me back in line. The one thing I really don't like about the school IS the grading system. Some people learn to use knowledge diffrently then others, so should be tested in diffrent ways. Some use images, others numbers, others "landmarks"- or little details that help them conjure the big picture. To be honest, I'm really just rambling... so I guess I'll stop now. Lata yo.

Tired

2006-08-03T20:34:00.000-04:00

Well, I told rw I'd post... so I'll try to salvage something outta this spent head of mine. Well, skool is gonna start on the 14th, and I really don't want to go to skool these days. I've got amer. gov., physical science, geometry, computers, english, etc. Meh, Meh, Meh. But, atleast this year I have a history class, w00t for history. This hasn't been such an intellectual post, but I'm "Le Tired". I love you rw. (())** to da maxx.

Control

2006-07-28T18:43:00.000-04:00

Well, Just now I was graced by a very rude and crude comment by the alias of "the one and only lil mike"... I have a couple things to say about your comment budd. One, I don't ever want to hear you talk about rebecca like that again, understood. I have no idea who you are, and if I did I'd probably come hunt you down. Listen to me... I don't have to convince you that rebecca is the greatest girl in the world, because your opinion means nothing to me. Another thing, no profanity budd. You comment, you watch what you say. I'd be careful, because if you think I'm mad... think about how God feels when punishment is reigning down on you. Thats why I'm not too angry... because Gods on MY side. I'll be praying for you mike, and if you need to talk... email me at pyro_x_gambit@yahoo.com , alright? I just see this as one of the many trials God is sending me... to see if I can withstand it when rw's gone. One more thing... to prevent this from ever happening again, I have been forced to use comment moderation. No worries, I'm on the computer most of the day anyways. Dani and ms. A... thanx a whole lot for reminding me not to over-react. I dedicate this post to you guys!!! I love you rw, and hope you're having a safe trip as I type this out. (())**...

Yeah whatever

2006-07-26T12:21:00.000-04:00

Well, camp was good... The only thing that stunk was that me and rw barely had any time to hang out... but I had the most awesome cabin ever. Lets see, there was me, Sam, and terrence (no surprise there). Then we had "Bert" (matt Bertrand)... He was a beast of a man. We had flapjack... berts friend, I came up with his nick name. His real name was Jake Jack... We were gonna call him blackjack... but terrence would've gotten all anti-racial on us... hehe. Then there was nick... I played a lot of pool with that guy. Then we had our oddball, kyle. I never really got a chance to connect with him, but on the last nite of camp, our counselor Joe told us that he made some big decisions... Never found out though. My cabin was the biggest, hungriest, and for the most part most athletic. We didn't do too bad on the verse memory either. Well, I got an email from Bert not to long ago, so thas cooel. Well, I'm kinda bummed that Rebecca is leaving for Ohio for 10 months. Just pray that I lean on God for support during this time of need, and that I don't lean on myself. Keep her and her mom in your prayers, and her dad thas in Iraq. I really care for her. I know this is a public blog and all, but I shouldn't be afraid to express my own opinion on my OWN BLOG. So yeah. I love rw... Her mom is like a second mom to me when I'm in need of a ride or just a quick chat. I'm gonna miss her soooooo much, but I know God will see me through. "Look to the Good, Look to the Good". If you have no idea what the last sentence was about, I have no intention on telling you. This has been a piece of my heart... Hope you enjoyed. From Def Jeff, with love. (Go James Bond Go).

Oh yeah... rw--- (())** !!!

what d'you think? true?

2006-07-16T18:57:00.000-04:00

Your Personality Profile
You are dignified, spiritual, and wise.Always unsatisfied, you constantly try to better yourself.You are also a seeker of knowledge and often buried in books.You tend to be philosophical, looking for the big picture in life.You dream of inner peace for yourself, your friends, and the world.A good friend, you always give of yourself first.

word

2006-07-13T23:01:00.000-04:00

Well, camp es comin up. w00t. Well, fundraisers... which I'll need a ride to on sat. Anywho's... I'll post tomorrow. Love you ~~~ kirei... ;)

Oh yeah

2006-07-10T14:47:00.000-04:00

This friday, saturday, and suday have been the tree best grouped days of my Life. Friday I got to go to rachel and rebecca acree's party and shakingly present a magic trick to them. There I was allowed to sit next to and hang out with rw without any idiots ready to pounce (except courtney... but john had to deal with her... poor john). Then saturday I wen tto the fundraiser car wash with becca and everyone ele (I only paid attention to her though)... I was able to flirt with her and all her soggy-handed glory. Then sunday I got to go to both services and go to the m.a.c attack err whatever, and eat with rw. That was awesome. So from my standpoint... the only thing I really think could top those is when I go to camp with her riding next to me. Oh yeah, the car ride back from arby's was absolutely awesome. That ride just proved that rebecca has one of the COOLEST, MOST AWESOMEST, AND AMAZING mom's I've ever gotten the chance to call "cupcake" (inside joke foo monkey's). Well, I have to go wash the catsup stains rebecca got on my new used shirt last ite. It sure was worth it tho. MMMM, soggy catsuped curly fries with extra peppered Dr. Pepper. mmmmmmmmm. And rw... well, just take a wild guess At what I wanna say... ;). Later peeps. Def Jeff, out.

sorry

2006-07-06T01:02:00.000-04:00

Almost everything I've said about martial arts is a lie. I do have an extreme knowledge of tkd and judo, but have not earned belts... the only training I've had is with steven and myself. I'm sorry, but it kept itching at me until I decided to get up and post. Forgive me please. I can still kick but in sparring, and know forms from tkd, and lots of throws from judo. I'm really sorry. It was all a pride thing.I'll just wait for the wrath now. I've lied, and I hope you guys out there have the heart to forgive me...

2006-07-04T16:46:00.000-04:00

new blog------------------------ Poetry-of-our-souls.blogspot.com . Look for the link...

You wanna join... comment, and I'll email you. Gonna actually have to have COMMITMENT though.

I am what I am

2006-07-03T22:22:00.000-04:00

We've all heard this cliche before... but for me right now its come true. Last night I only got two hours of sleep (no sympathy please), and the reason... well, you'll probably find out soon enough. As you can see my profile picture has changed once again. To explain... well, here goes. The cute little teddie bear... not me at all. No, I'm not going on a power trip, so back off. As many know, I am a "former" (kinda...) martial artist. TKD, Judo, and kum-do. Well, that bear roaring at all who threaten his territory, family, and lifestyle is what I really am. I'm a nice guy... don't get me wrong... but when someone crosses the line, lets just say I tend to scare them back to their side. Once again, by no means am I trying to enlarge my pride or ego. I just wanted to be true to myself, and everyone else. I am no teddie bear folks... I'm a grizzly. This coming school year is going to be absolutely the roughest year I will have experienced in my life (no, I'm not very "optimistic" right now). The one thing I really don't want is for the beast to come out and play. I like it when he's tamed (not a psychopath either, just like to expressing myself through crazy words is all). So, I ask all my friends a favor. Rw, sam, rachel, rebecca, dan, danielle, meg, joe, samurai mentor... and all others who help me through life... GOD ... please put up with me, because it won't be easy. I won't say I love you all, because you peoples already know that. Its been fun... but all good times must come to a screeching halt. From Jeff with love. DJ... out.

Btw, happy 4th.

Good ter be home

2006-07-02T14:14:00.000-04:00

Yeah, I arrived in GA yesterday. The flight was actually pretty awesome. The guy I sat by was nice and skinny, and he was pretty awesome to talk to. We talked about martial arts (he's about to test for his B. belt), and he was also a counselor at a m.a. camp. He was leaving from tacoma to mobile alabama to go see his bio. father. We talked about how it is to have a split family, how hard tae kwon do training could be, girls, and a little on religion for about 2 and a half hours. That was cool, because the flight was over 4 hours. Then I started to show him som magic tricks... and its always fun to see the amusement in someone's eyes. Apparently I wasn't at church today, and won't be tonite because of the fact that me mum has to work all day today, and my dad (er step-dad, whatever) is gone to rhode island for abouyt a week to see HIS family. I slept in until about one this afternoon, but I stil;l would've gone to church if given the chance. OK, sam. I NEED you to re-burn james taylor, ffh, and third day... because I've totally lost my whole music collection. I have creed anf rel. k on my laptop. I just need this favor from you, please? Well, peace out home slices. LU rw.

An adventure, so to speak

2006-06-29T14:16:00.000-04:00

Well, last night was very rough fer eme. I had to walk about a mile home at around 10:30 p.m. Yet, I really think God was tryin to tell me something. It was dark (duh), and I was walkin with me 11 year old cousin. He isn't very brave, or very big for his age (but he's absolutely intelligent). When we were walking, as you can imagine he was a little afraid to be walking so late i the darkness on some abandoned street. But the one thing that really stuck out was this. I had my arm around his shoulder to keep him feeling secure, and I had my collared shirt on him to keep him warm, and I kept giving him words of encouragement to keep his mind off his fear. I was all that for him. I was the big cousin who he thought I could sheild him from anything, keeping him warm and such. But to be completely honest I had to try my hardes not to show that I was scared. The one that was acting as my comforter... ding ding ding, God. He was the one who was giving me the strengh to get through that trial, and to have the strength to keep my cousin feeling ok. I think in our lives we forget something extremely valuable that we own, THE PROTECTION OF GOD!!! With God we can do ALL THINGS. People try to make it on their own, and look where they end up, on the street... or in the ground. This really hit me way hard because I'm not a pushover ( I'm not proud of that when it comes right down to it either), and I sometimes forget to do things through God, NOT myself. I think that that is a real problem among us christians today, we forget that God is with us, always watching over, never leaving our side, ready for us to win the fight against the world and it's sinful ways. Thank you, and good bye. I'll be home safe (God-willing), and soon. Later.

Yeah yeah yeah ya-yeah...

2006-06-27T21:47:00.000-04:00

ummm... well, yeah who's... that was kinda dumb ^... oh well. Anywho's... I haven't been abwhen I gety le to post because In TACOMA WASHINGTON (there ya go meg) The lib b closed on sun and mon... word. Everything is no rmal, just a bit hott fer washington. I miss everyone, and even though when I get back I won't immedietly see all of you, and won't see samurai man or meg... but thyank yiou guys so much for the support. Well, I need the extremely coveted opinions of my frineds who visit this blog... I was thinking of starting a new blog. The idea... poetry. I was thinkin about inviting any poets who think they can keep up with the work. If you're interested, gimme a mail, if not, just keep reading for z site. I'm real;ly hopin sam and rw will come along. Oh yeah, sam, I know That you're my moochestly mooch buddy, so I kinda need a favor dude. Do you think you can copy james taylor, ffh, and that other cd that was entitled "offerings II "(can't remember the name). I lost all my cd's and cd player in a freak accident (I'll tell you when I get back). I have creed and relient k on my lapytop... just this favor, pleeeze? Well, gtg peeps and peep-ettes. Later. And rw, well, yeah. This isn't a secured l;ine, but I think you b knowin what I b thinkin. pEAce oUt...

Huzzah

2006-06-21T20:31:00.000-04:00

That is a weird word, isn't it. Well, Everything is "cooo" up here, literally. I miss everyone downn there... but I don't know how it is vice versa. Well, time for emotion again. I was talkin ter rebecca today, and I brought the subject on my fear, my greatest fear ever. When people see me, they don't really see me. They see an oversized 15 year old (which isn't always good, I'll tell why in a min), and they see that slight frown I have when I walk, and the huge feet pounding the ground with its boots. What they don't see is the real me. To be completely honest, hardly anyone has seen the TRUE me. Not the hardcore martial artist me, or the sensitive poet me, or the 2nd basemen me, or even the outgoing and random me... I mean the REAL me. The real me is a young man who has a little of idea what he's gonna do the next day. The real me is a y.man who has deep feelings for one other person, loves his family and God more than himself, and is one of the most balling babies when it comes to confrontation and despair. I was talkin to rebecca (as I said), and I started to talk about the biggest fear I have (as also said before... deja vue, huh?). Wellp, I told her a couple of days ago my fear was losing the one's that I( love and cherish. When I was talking to her today, I refined the term "losing" in the sentence for her... I meantg people leaving me forever, not dying... but physically going. I remember when I was about seven, and My dad was with me a couple of minuetes, and then he left... and It hurt me real real bad. I was crying just telling rebecca about it. That was the first time I mentioned that memory since I lived it. I decided to talk about this... because I want to say thanx. Thanx to God fopr giving me a loving and caring family on me mum's side, and a perfect girl, and awesome friends, who for the most part, put up with me and my emotions. I love you guys and gals... truly LOVE. Not websters dictionary, not bible terms... jeff definition! Oh yeah... The problem with looking older than you really are (sam, you're next dude... hehe). Well then, I was skating at the skating rink (my intelligence is just oozing out today), well long story short, this kinda... actually really overweight 17 year old started to hit on me. Really ugly, one front tooth missing... not me type yo. She evn gave me her number... dude, wrong. I told her I was taken, maybe she was deaf too, eh? Well, gtg peeps. Later. Quit laughing at me becca! ;) (())** to... well, duh.

Meh, Meh, MEH!!!

2006-06-16T18:11:00.000-04:00

Yeah, meh... That's what I was thinkin when I got outta bed this mornin. I have a major headache as I type, I have a serious sore throat as well. And to top it all off, I hurt on the inside from bein away from everyone in ga. Does life suck... naah. It just stinks like dookie for a little bit as "raindrops keep fallin on our heads"... but eventually, it gets better. For example, I found out that rw might not move away, and actually has a chance to go tocamp. BOOYA!!! Thats awesome! I also know that ventually I'll be back at home with my little bro and sis... and I'll be with rw admiring her perfume and absolutely glowing smile, and I'll be with sam, dani, jenni, rachel, taylor, dan, etc... hangin out and bein crezy. So... 'sol good! Well, I love you guys and girls, and stuff. I miss you muches rw... and to my mommy... I WUV YOU (if someone could pass that on at church). Oh yeah, if anyone wants to spare the money for long distance and call me, email me and we'll set up a time, k? Word in and peace out yo. Later.

thanx a million... plus 1

2006-06-15T20:37:00.000-04:00

well, The libs about to close... but thank you all for the prayer while I'm out here. I miss all of you, and really can't wait til I get back. Ok, time to spill some kind of emotion... I love all of you, and miss you guys and gals soo much. Be good, because you know I won't... hehe. Peace guys... peace a lot.

Trials

2006-06-13T18:07:00.000-04:00

yep... thats whats been happening in my life... well, I have to go use the bathroom... more tomorrow... maybe

w00t

2006-06-09T17:09:00.000-04:00

Well, I am ok now. Rebecca es back from her trip thingy, so I'm was happy to talk to her without the worry of losing her cellphone's connection. We talked for about an hour, and it only felt like 10 minutes... Yeah, that was fun. Yesterday I had to cut and load up fire-wood for this year's winter season... even though I don't think we'll need it very much. I can't wait for the youth activity tomorrow, its going to be fun, I suppose. Me and some friends are going to danielle's get together after the youth activity, I hope that becca will come to that... so it won't be so... tense (for ME). I'm temporarily not able to play my guitar due to the fact that I cut my finger when messing with the crappy wood. I can't hold down the string... because the cuts on my left hand middle finger. So that stinks like dookie. Also pray that becca won't move, that God's will is played out, and that whatever happens, I will be mature enough to handle the verdict. Oh yeah, I'm leaving on monday the 12th for washington state... so the posts won't be as frequent... even though they aren't now... hehe. Well, later then, and Godbless. wOOt. Rebecca... well, take I wild guess at what I'm thinking...

Word, yo

2006-05-31T09:47:00.000-04:00

Well, I talked to rw on the phone... that was nice to be reassured. She doesn't have a comp to use... so, yay. Well, I turned on the tv this morning, ond I saw this song playing... and it hit me. I almost wept. Its a nickelback song (yes Iknow, wordly band)... but don't be so quick to judge the messenger before hearing the message. Its a bout a man who is crying out for God, looking around him and seeing the tradjedies of this vain life, and how what we've done can keep us down without him. You still have to think though (and I think the music video was kinda cool... you'll catch on.). Here are the lyrics... and the song will be at the BOTTOM of the BLOG.

Nickelback

"Savin' Me"

Prison gates won't open up for me

On these hands and knees I'm crawlin'

Oh, I reach for you

//////////////////////////////////////

Well I'm terrified of these four walls

These iron bars can't hold my soul in

All I need is you

Come please I'm callin'

And oh I scream for you

Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

///////////////////////////////////////

[Chorus:]Show me what it's like

To be the last one standing

And teach me wrong from right

And I'll show you what I can be

Say it for me

Say it to me

And I'll leave this life behind me

Say it if it's worth saving me

/////////////////////////////////////

Heaven's gates won't open up for me

With these broken wings I'm fallin'

And all I see is you

These city walls ain't got no love for me

I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth story

And oh I scream for you

Come please I'm callin'

And all I need from you

Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

/////////////////////////////////////////

[Chorus]

///////////////////////////////////////

Hurry I'm fallin'

All I need is you

Come please I'm callin'

And oh, I scream for you

Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

////////////////////////////////////////

[Chorus]

//////////////////////////////////////

Hurry I'm fallin'

Sorry

2006-05-30T11:13:00.000-04:00

I haven't been on the comp, or the phone, or the tv for the past 3 days. I've just been... thinking. Not just about what I'm gonna eat, or what the next poem I'm gonna write is. It's been so much deeper than that. It's been one question... who am I? If anyone wants to help... go ahead and try, but I know in the end I am the only one who can truely answer this. Oh yeah, btw... I'm leaving on the 12th instead of the 22nd... so yeah. I haven't heard or communicated with rw since she left from ohio to penn, so I'm a little worried... pray for that. That's it for now.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR-EAT!

2006-05-27T08:43:00.000-04:00

Well, no one is here to talk to, and I'm completely bored outta me mind. I don't know, I just wish skool was still goin, and wed. night visitation (and dinner ;) ) But, I'm kinda... lonely. I was reading through some of my past poetry... and I get too emotional about some things. I'm not gay, but I'm not a rock either. Sometimes I wish I was a rock... but then me and rw wouldn't be the same. Well, I won't sign off with a mushy comment, or a cool quote, or even a popular saying. It seems that whatever I post, someone finds something wrong with it... so...I end with this-

(nothing)

A friend, A sister, A helping hand

2006-05-24T08:49:00.000-04:00

Wellp, I just woke up (halleluja)... and I decided to dedicate this post to someone other than what you would expect. She's the only girl that I've ever been a friend with, then tried to be her boy-friend (and failed, apparently), and then mended to be able to be closer than what I would expect. She's emotional in the things she does, but yet she's shy and modest when it's needed. She doesn't need a relationship constantly... but she does need a friend frequently. She's a junior becoming a senior next year, and then she's looking at bob jones for a college choice. She laughs at most of my stupid jokes... even the ones I don't laugh at. Well, She is one thing that no other girl could be, and that's not being related to me, but at the same time being a sister to me. Her name... Rachel Acree.

I LOVE YOU IN CHRIST SIS!!!!!!

I thought it was cool...

2006-05-22T21:59:00.000-04:00

Ya'll tell em if you think the survey ABOVE is true about me. Especially you rw. I miss you... but I'll leave the rest for email...

cool

2006-05-21T22:49:00.000-04:00

Well, above is this kinda dumb... but somehow unbelievably true thing about me... I miss you rw. LAteR to the rest of ya'll. Email me and tell me what you think rw, you of all people should have an opinion on this subject.

Day 1

2006-05-20T16:49:00.000-04:00

Well, on thursday I was proclaimed "Preacher boy of the year". Don't worry, I won't let it go to my head, there was only one other p. boy. Anywho's, rw and her family have left to ohio and pa until about the 8th of june. It really stinks for me... but it wasn't my decision to make. Pray that she had a safe trip, and stays close to God, and I'll be happy. I promised her one thing before she left me, and that is "to the best of my ability to be happy". Well guys, I'm workin on it. I'm trying to keep my mind off her... but it's almost impossible, lemme explain. When I woke up this mornin... my mom was watchin tv... and the lady's name there was rebecca. I had just woken up and already the yearning for her comes back. Then I go to watch tv, and I see a show entitled (man the devil likes to mock me)... "Rebecca's garden". Then I went running, and I saw about 17 license plates with the two letters "rw" together. Wow, life this summer is already becoming fantastic!!! Well, the one thing I promised myself is that I wouldn't turn into some of my friends, where if they're 5 minuetes apart from eachother, all they do is pout and talk about the other. Get a life!!! Anyways, just keep rw and her family in your prayers. I love them (especially her) soooooooo much. I'm carrying your love with me rw...

so much... fun

2006-05-15T13:35:00.000-04:00

Well, today I didn't have to go to school because I was exempt from testing today. Instead I went to breakfast and got a couple shirts at aeropostale. It was alright, but I missed my sweetheart ;). Well, I don't like to talk about it, but I need prayer from everyone that becca won't have to move. Makes me depressed just thinking about it. No, no, better yet... pray that GOD'S WILL is played out. I love her so...

I'm good

2006-05-11T17:04:00.000-04:00

Well, I haven't posted in a while... but I guess I'll make that up here. Wellp, wed. night was really awesome for me. I got to spend some time with becca without idiot interruption, and also got to hang out with dani and sam and becca in the rain. We were soaked, we were cold, we were happy. Well, I was thinkin about my friends... and in bible class (around the second quarter), we had a lesson that was pointing out what kind of friends people could be to us. (hi mom, I see you behind my back, and I love you!!!). There were acquaintances, good friends, close friends, and best friends. I have loads of good friends, anout 4 close friends, and only one best friend. I wrote my best friend a poem, and I hope she loves it. You know who you are, kirei.

You're the one who's by my side

when no one else is there.

You're the one I can always count on,

You always seem to care.

You help me throughthe tough times,

and when I've lost all hope,

You cry with me at sad times,

and laugh at all my jokes.

You never seem to judge me

or ever put me down,

You put a smile on my face,

When ever you see a frown.

You're better than anything I've ever had,

You're more than just the one I care for and tend,

You have a special place in my heart,

That's why your the one I love, my Best Friend.

doin' better

2006-04-29T21:27:00.000-04:00

well, I'm gonna praech in sunday night church (teen sunday)... and I am so freaked out. I need as much prayer as possible. Soo... ya. Also, pray that rw's mom doesn't decide to move to ohio. That would really hurt without having the one girl I TRULY love not beside me at lunch, or at church... I don't wanna think about it anymore. Well, I love you guys (and only ONE special little lady ;) ). Peace out peeps. Oh ya........................

JWR

LOVES

RLW

!!!!!!!!!!

(())** rw (someday... you'll see)

I'm dying alive

2006-04-21T18:54:00.000-04:00

Well, I feel like the world's crashing down. I don't know what to do... everything was alright today until I got home. I can't get any sleep, peace, or joy without rw around. I miss you rebecca. Yes, you do help me... but for the past 3 months, I've had to cry myself asleep, every night hanging off the idea of if I should let myself live for the beating and torture of the next day.

I hear things no one else hears,

I see things no one else sees,

I feel things no one else feels.

Save me, please God, save me.

Someone email me... please. Rw... I love you, and your smile. I don't know what's wrong with me... but I've held it in from people too long. I need my friends... why do I weep? Because I'm dying.

Do pigs have ankles?

2006-04-15T17:37:00.000-04:00

I don't care about the title... just thought it was a bit... funny. Well, I apologize for not being able to return emails, post, etc. Moving has worn me down... plus the internet wasn't hooked up until last night. I felt so deprived... from society. Well, pray for a couple of kids on my base b. Team... I almost knocked their heads in... big mouths. I don't care when someone talks about ME... I can always just blow it off. But when they talk about rw... that's a real temptation. But I stayed right with God. I've learned over the past couple of weeks about something. "Vengeance is Mine" Saith the LORD... not me, not others, not even batman. THE LORD will take care of it. Explanation... who can hit harder... me or God. wOOt. I love you rw...

Dislike... With a PASSION...

2006-04-07T11:58:00.000-04:00

well, we're almost done with our moving. We still have to pack the kitchen, office, etc. The good news is we get to keep the same phone # ( for the people who even care). Pray for dani, she's visiting relatives from england. For more details, click on her link. I haven't heard from my girl in a while... so I hope I do soon. I don't like moving, I get stuck with all the lifting, and cleaning. Well, got to go pack. Peace out mugas and lady-mugas (formally known as mugettes). Later.

Better stuff...

2006-04-05T15:02:00.000-04:00

Well, I'm tired of this "internet controversy" so to speak. It has drained me of energy, made me wrong with God, and brought tears to my eyes. NO MORE. There's a saying in greek... Excuse the spelling. - "Hickfus pakam parabellum". It means, if you want peace, you gotta have war. There's been enough war, don'tcha think. Time to bring on the peace. Peace, grace, and faith be with you my sisters and brothers. Amen... amen...

Ya... anger...

2006-03-25T19:50:00.000-05:00

Anger can produce many things. I wanted to share a japanese proverb... and then we'll move on from there... eh-hemm...

"Anger is as the fire, you can manipulate it to your extreme advantage, or you can let it burn you from the inside out uncontrollably. "

Now as some of you know... I have trouble in this issue of my life. Yet, I have also produced the ability to harness it to my advantage in my martial arts career. I think that when some people say they have no anger in their lives, or that they don't let it "dwell in them", I think they're liars. Seriously, we all have problems with anger, or we are no human. Wednsday at school, I became more than angry, I become " furiously enraged " as my father says. I flipped to desks over with my right hand ( I'm not trying to make it sound full of pride, thanks). Now, in my whole life I've only been that mad about 4 times... each time I hurt someone. Well, one my rw knows about (mr. gregg)... I regret not killing him... well ladies and gentlemen, I just wanted to give a bit of my knowledge to you. I don't have TOO much to give away, so don't spend it on some fancy record player. hehehe... someone e-mail me... gator food rw... * wink*... try that rw... hehehe

With cheese

2006-03-05T17:13:00.000-05:00

Ya, I havn't posted in a while because I've been busy with... stuf. First off, I would like to adress "anonymous". I think it was stupid of u to try and kill me on my own turf. If u wanna talk about something, email me. I have put my knuckles into enough people's traps to figure that fighting is the last possibility in a situation. God bless u anonymous. Thanks to all my friends I can get through life (besides family and God). My baseball team is at 2 eins and 1 loss... and we've gots a game on tuesday, pray fer that. Pray for rw's orders... I REALLY want her to stay. Well, peace out mugga's... catchya on d flipside. Man... don't ever get a buzz-cut guys... the ventilation is good... but u look like a thug (which I don't mind... hehehe...) Later. Alligator food to rw....

yep

2006-02-13T18:27:00.000-05:00

well, I would like to apologize for my venting upom the web. Ya, thanks pastor liedke... but I still think u guys only see this one-sidedly... so if u can, just listen I can understand that the older students are role models and need to be careful... but check this out. If I were to spend every 3:oo break, and walk to lunch (and to chapel even) that time wouldn't even come close to... the "all-day" you teachers/ staff were talkin bout. Plus, if I spend time with rw when we're not even close to the little kids... what does it matter??? Well, since I've seen it from "your" point of view... u can see it from mine. BTW, Pastor liedke... I love you. Thanks fer not comin down on me when I was venting. To be honest... I was hopin u would... but I've changed my mind. Thanx...

"Please Drink Responsibly"

2006-01-30T19:53:00.000-05:00

Once again I caught myself thinkin... arrgh... and I remebered this beer commercial. It would show how all the skinny, rich drunks were havin a good time... and at the end it had these really small, almost translucent words, "please drink responsibly". Well, then I thought about that they gave them the fuel to be irresponsible... but to justify their actions, they slip in the FAMOUS phrase. That's totally nuts, to da maxx. So I thought some more... when are they gonna do that with cigarettes, or guns, or even drugs when the time comes??? It's really stupid... and we neglect this knowledge... but it's true, and we all should probably pay a bit more attention to life, eh??? Well, Thas all for now... peace out... and alligator food rw...

dag, yo...

2006-01-29T21:10:00.000-05:00

I was just thinkin bout something (what else do I ever do???), and all I see is couples everywhere... es loco, eh? well, I'm a part of that group... but it's really stupid... but I don't think I could live without my kirei... sooo... here's a present fer her...

Big Ferocious Teddie Bear

Loves

Kirei

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sup mugas!

2006-01-27T22:09:00.000-05:00

well, There isn't much goin on in z world of jeff right now. Man... don't ya feel dumb when ya get worked up bout nothin... geez. Well, I can't wait till saturday... cause of the youth activity (strobe kight volley ball). The reason I'm really goin is to see my friends... but whutever. My gf had to go to a game (cheerleading)... I miss her so. well, Nothin much else to say. I would like to leave u guys with a philisophical quote though *clearing throat*

"What makes a man? Some say honor, strength, commitment. I believe only one thing can make a man... LOVE."
-Def Jeff

Well, I was thinkin last night when I was in bed ( I can never get to sleep... always thinkin bout sumpin... arggh) and I couldn't stop thinkin bout "what makes a man"... so I started to read my bible. I can't remember what verse or chapter... but I was in proverbs... and I realized that without God's love... we ain't squat. Remember that the next time God or satan sends us a test of our faith. Alligator food rw... and ter the rest of ya'll... peace out... and keep ure eyes crossed ( don't think... don't blink... our ego just might need to shrink...) Later. Stupid colors... hehehe...

Told ya so

2006-01-23T18:27:00.000-05:00

well, seahawks er goin to z superbowl fer the first time in their franchise history. That's my home-team!!!! well, I'm so happy, i might do something speratically crazy (watch out rw ;) n-e-who's... I'm just sooooo happy...BTW... rw... we'll see on wed... hehehe

Idoicy isn't bliss

2006-01-22T21:02:00.000-05:00

well, I tottaly screwed up. I'm sorry for over-reacting rw... and hope to make it better. Tell me how to repay u... please. alligator food...

Mo stuff...

2006-01-15T21:58:00.000-05:00

Nothing to do. I'm up kinda late so I can't write my poem now... but i will eventually. I be avin a party on the 21st... but the boys are spendin the night on the 20th. Ummm, yay. well, Umm, "alligator food" to my sweeti... hehehe...

Creed rules... plain and simple...

2006-01-13T22:58:00.001-05:00

"My Sacrifice"

Hello my friend, we meet again

It's been awhile, where should we begin?

Feels like forever

Within my heart are memories

Of perfect love that you gave to me

Oh, I remember

When you are with me,

I'm free

I'm careless,

I believe

Above all the others we'll fly

This brings tears to my eyes

My sacrifice

We've seen our share of ups and downs

Oh how quickly life can turn around

In an instant

It feels so good to reunite

Within yourself and within your mind Let's find peace there

When you are with me,

I'm freeI'm careless,

I believe

Above all the others we'll flyThis brings tears to my eyes

My sacrifice

I just want to say hello again

When you are with me I'm free

I'm careless,

I believe

Above all the others we'll fly

This brings tears to my eyes

Cause when you are with me I am free

I'm careless,

I believe

Above all the others we'll fly

This brings tears to my eyes

My sacrifice,

My sacrifice

I just want to say hello again

My sacrifice.

This is a very touching song to me. It is true with me and God... but also me and rw... she means everything to my pitiful soul. Until next time... stay stong in God...

For rw...

2006-01-12T20:33:00.000-05:00

well, I told rw I'd finish my poem. I hope that she feels better... so pray fer her... cause she means a lot to me. seriously. well here goes...

My definition of LOVE

By DJ

inspired by rw

Love is the great illusion,

The trick we all fall for.

Conjured but never caught.

Felt but never owned.

Avoidable yet inevitable.

Love is a pleasant dream,

A haunting for lone wolves.

Regretted yet wanted.

Liberating yet suffocating.

A thought yet never reality.

Love is an artform,

A priceless masterpiece.

Hated by the many.

Admired by the few.

Yet equally effects us all.

Think about this... cause u might need to...

The day hath cometh... ummm, NOWETH!!! hehehe...

2006-01-06T19:49:00.000-05:00

well, Today was my birthday... mi es quince... erm... 15. well, I would like ter thank the ones who wished me a warm one... and Hope ter have many to come. When I leave fer kentucky... I'm gonna be sure to see u guys again, seriously. Well, especially rw... I hope we might be able to keep what we have... cause we can meet back up in college if everything goes ter plan. well, I'll ttyl mugas. DJ... IZ-OUT !!!

YAY!!! X2

2006-01-03T06:34:00.000-05:00

well, skool es backo... so... I gtg. Ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm... meh! well, TNT (till next time)... PEACE MUGAS. YA BOI... (I hate doing that voice btw... ter some people!!!)... ok bye.

well then...

2005-12-29T15:41:00.000-05:00

I have absolutely nothing ter write about, so here goes... well, I wish school would start up, cause I'm missin a couple people... Well, I just wanted ter give a new post. miss u guys...

Hmmm

2005-12-28T11:26:00.000-05:00

"Death before Dishonor". I wish to speak on this samurai/bushido religion and part philosophy. Well, I saw A book in Barnes and Nobles that was "The code of the samurai"... er somethin like that. I think this phrase is quite self-centered in itself because of the action it is portraying. It is basically saying that this person would kill himself before he brought shame upon himself. It is very selfish, because one with this attitude does not care too much on the reaction of his death (or the reaction of family, friends, ect.). But then I also realized something, that their belief system is tottaly outta whack... and that their people would understand why he died and be proud of him. I was once in this mind-set one a was a young one... it is not fun...

Fun times are here to stay...

2005-12-26T12:26:00.000-05:00

meh, I'm sooo bored out of my molecular mindstate. I hope that RW gets home soon, but to all my other peeps, email me or something! Well, especially to rachel, cause it seems likr the past couple o' days u've been the only one on. Well, I think I might be able to go to Sam's on thurs... If nothin major happens. I got this pack o' hackeysacks and this "60 TRICK DVD!!!!" These guys on there are soo stupid though. "Let's SHRED!!!" It was more of a comedy dvd then anything else. hehehe, well, I talk ter ya peeps later. Btw, Anyone who hasn't been ter my two sites... here they are------------------------------
1. www.samurailife.blogspot.com
2.www.dorandbui.blogspot.com

Merry CHRIST-mas

2005-12-25T08:06:00.000-05:00

well, I hope everyone's holiday es aight. Iwoke up too early fer my own good, but i'm settled noew. We're done with presents, and I'm about ter go back to the bed-dicaterlismnistic doohickey, meh. Well, I hope u all know the meaning of christmas. I could care less about the presents and such. I miss rw, cause she left for the holiday, but i hope she be aight. PEACE MUGAS!!!

impatience... not cool

2005-12-24T20:22:00.000-05:00

weelll, I don't reeaallyy have that word in the title about me right now... just kind of bored. Well, To all a good night... SUCKAS. Ter my friend Rw- LUL... POKE... POKE x2... And I'm playin ter go to ryans bout tues... sound good? Anyways... peace mugas!!!

Hmmmm... a good life...

2005-12-23T17:13:00.000-05:00

well, sam's party was pretty sweeet. I gotto spendf time with friends... an a little more then others(ticklishness isn't a weakness... It's cute... hehe). Well, The light of the party pretty much stood out... sam's shitzu-"star". Well, the little pup was sittin in rebecca acrees lap lookin fine and dandy when... bleeeehhhh!!! Exorcist all over again!!! The dog tottaly pukes on her... It was awesome(mind the little lady... mmmhhmmmm...). But I was laughin more at the dog than the loud screams coming from r.a. Well, Don't forget to take ure "intervals" or... pee. Hehehe... inside... joke... hehehe... . Randomness will soon rule the world... very soon... . Well, BTW, to RW- I still have that pen... hehehe...

Really, Truly, Honestly, ... lonely...

2005-12-21T14:17:00.000-05:00

well, This cm break is definately turning out ter be a flop. Did I do something wrong, erm, Said something stupid??? I just wish that I could talk ter someone... Because right now I'm on the brink of insanity. I need to talk to SOMEONE!!! Jeff... Out.

DA MALL!!!

2005-12-19T18:56:00.000-05:00

well, today was wicked fun. we got to go to the mall fer the youth activity, where we got to do a video scavenger hunt. It was pretty fun, and I got 2 hang out with some friends and act tottaly stupid in public... with permission. Awesome, eh? Well, I hope my other friends had a good ol' time and such. Well, gotta go study my digestive essay fer Mr.Mac.

P.S.-to rw... "Poke"

i be sorry...

2005-12-18T16:34:00.000-05:00

well, like on me other blog, I apologize. There es no need for me rambling in disgust and despair... I mean, Es christmas break, eh? So, In honor o' me stupidiful mistak'olater... I GIVE U... absloletely nothin Mugas. Actually... Godspeed, Godhear, GODBLESS!!!

oh... you "want" to understand

2005-12-16T23:09:00.000-05:00

DEATH AND DESTRUCTION. I'm weeping as I rite this, cause it hurts more than anyone could understand. Mail me peoples...

understand... probably not

2005-12-16T21:15:00.000-05:00

I'm so sick and tired of this struggle I battle through every Day. I'm always tellin myself I was born in the wrong time period. The 15th century "edo period" woulda done fine, and I wouldve been able to hide my frustration and agony that I express through tears of sorrow and detrementation behind my highly deadly katana. I wish people would not be so stupid, and I just wish that I had someone who thought exactly like me and could comfort me through this, but then I remember the old man sitting by the pond having a heart attack while the young frolic in their lesser wisdom, lesser worries, and just are content with there prescence of existence as if nothing else matters besides being together. SCREW THAT, I'm not turnin into a robot that does something and doesn't even think about it. I gather an opinion and express this philosophy compared to others thoroghly. Ya know what I really want fer christmas... absolutely nothing but a good state of mind and a little peace. Ne-hosean dewanai, so therefor I cannot cut your head off while u read this or commit seppeku. Sometimes I just lay on my bed and think, Think on famous and common quotes, or try to get into the mind of hitler or napolean, or kangaskaan or odu or washington, and try to derive from there useless and tossed away knowledge by so many STUPID PEOPLE, a common and understanding fact: we are all dying. From out of the womb we start the process of entropy. Every sip of tea we drink, evry breath we breathe, every letter we read, every word we say, every thought we think... we are all dying. Jeff... out.

some people

2005-12-16T18:16:00.000-05:00

some people ask me how I feel when I fight people that I don't like very much. Well there's one song that plays in my head and always get me amped... and pretty much explains how I feel when I have to beat down idiots who can't back up there mouth. Go to lyrics.com and click the album cover at the bottom o' the screen that says "trapt". Here are the lyrics... and when youhear the song... comment on it.

TRAPT

Why don't you let me be

Leave me alone

You start a fire inside that i could never control

You wanna see a reaction

Come on and cut me doubt

You've gone as far as i'll go

Now you're crossing the line

And i am letting you know

Well here's your reaction

Stand up

I have had enough

Walk away before i finish what you started

Face to face i will push you in your place

End this game before i finish what you started

Face to face everything will change

You planted the seed

How my anger has grown

Got an feeling inside that i can't seem to control

You wanna see a reaction

Come on and cut me doubt

You've gone as far as i'll go

Now you're crossing the line and i am letting you know

Well here's your reaction

Stand up

I have had enough

Walk away before i finish what you started

Face to face i will push you in your place

End this game before i finish what you started

Face to face everything will change

Insult

After insult [9x]

Stand up

I have had enough

Walk away before i finish what you started

Face to face i will put you in your place

End this game before i finish what you started

Face to face everything will change

Walk away

Everthing will change

End this game

You wanna see a reaction

Stand up

Well, today was pretty cool...

2005-12-16T14:36:00.000-05:00

I did good on me exams, and at the end of the half-day, we had pizza an soda popernissical(pop). I had 15 slices... which bear my altime 12 slice record. DA KING!!! This one gurl was eating pizza while jumping up and down an' laughin', and blew chunks. IT WAS AWESOME... to d maxx. I felt bad, but then gots the better in me, because I've been through what she has. Well, i hope to everyone that they have a good holiday... and remember the reason fer the seasonaciones. It's christ's birthday... not present time. I luv u guys(some more den others), but I think about ya'll all the time. Peace out my friends. Btw, You can check out me and my friends blog at www.dorandbui.blogspot.com. L8r.

For rw's sake. Look at the post "new blog..." "boo is the first comment, Geez

The contents of this post hold information that contain an anonymous girl, and the details will be withheld from certain beings and/or visitors.

Well...

2005-12-11T13:38:00.000-05:00

Sorry i didn't make it to church, my mom didn't want to go. I missed you guys a donkeyload! Well, i'm grounded to my room, so this post es top-seacret. Well, i hope you guys are doin ok. I'm still searchin fer cm presents. The only problem is they'll probably be After cm, so, i guess patience will paly a role here. NO ONE has commented on my new blog yet... that hurts. www.samurailife.blogspot.com!!!

YAY!!!

2005-12-10T19:36:00.000-05:00

I got to go on this church bus thing. I played basketball and hang-ed out wid soooom friends! It was pretty cooel... but i would've liked to talk to Crazy luner-tic a boot mooore... Oh well. "Life stinks... Then ya Die!" -Mr. Mac(one of the most stricktest... yet awesomess teachers i know!)

new blog...

2005-12-08T20:09:00.000-05:00

www.samurailife.blogspot.com

-be patient... work in progress

Quotes of Z past

2005-12-08T18:23:00.000-05:00

"Live Free, Die Well"-I thought this was honorable and courageous. It's from one of my movies i treasure---Braveheart*Pulls Back a lump in his throat*

"A perfect blossom. One could spend a lifetime looking for them, and it would not be a wasted life"---Well, this one ties in with a philosophy/religion i was forced to study in middle (public) school.It comes from Bushido, a very interesting religion that ties in with a samurai's code of conduct and way of life. It means a lot if ya think about it...-katsomoto Okumasen

Well, those are some of my favorites... I hope you got something outta them...

*awesome background music and cool voice (ask me to do it at skool... sounds like a movie trailer voice.)*Coming soon... a blog of a samurai's tale, wrapped up in his longing for peace and prosperity, yet fighting off his desire to destroy.

yo home-muggas

2005-12-06T06:47:00.000-05:00

Well, Week be goin ok so far. Keep a lookout for my new blog comin soon, But there's also a bonus surprise. Me and a friend of mine are going to create a blog of our own. It'll be random, yet solemn, Or even outgoing, But shy. Well Catcha on z flipidy-flipppppper side!

YO!!! I'M OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sup...

2005-12-04T13:44:00.000-05:00

well, another day, another Lukeshtikk!!! I be alright. as of right now i'm be writing a story, which will eventually become a blog. It's gonna be on a samurai's life... so fer right now i have to get into in detail research, since samurai history and culture is som indept. well, keep a lookout fer it, cause i'll give de sight soon. GB (and LuL to the one who knows what this be meanin.)
PA-PA-PEACE AnD STUFF !

happy b-day dani... but i must confess...

2005-12-03T17:58:00.000-05:00

well, it was danielle's b-day today, and i hope she enjoyed it to the fullest. well, i wasn't in the best of moods today(as some of us could see)... but i tried to keep it in. i did it for ure sake dani. Well, i kinda didn't get to talk to sam, cause i wanted him to talk to danielle. I was just tired and frusatrated w/ myself. thank you jennifer, becca, rachel, logan, taylor... thanks. I love ya'll. BTW, I have pretty good news(es). My dad might be statined to kentucky(which is only 10 hours away). But the better news is that tehre might be a chance to stay here because of my dad's back problems. pray fer me...

Lukeshtikk... what else can I say?

2005-11-27T13:28:00.000-05:00

Well, to my loyal followers, sorry I havn't posted in a while. I've just been really busy, thas all. well, to explain this word (in the title), It;s just like "cowpie" or "on the moose", so spread it around! Well, i hope ya'll are doin gooooooooooood, YO I"M OUT!!!! (sam and dan, thas fer u guys). PA-PA-PA-PEACE MUGGAS!!!

ya and sumpin...

2005-11-18T23:29:00.000-05:00

well, sup me homie f's? Havn't blogged in ferever. Well, sol goode here... but i can't wait until the ZANY OLYMPICS... soooo, ya. well, i hope ya'll es cooel out ther... and lighten up, your only gonna die from when you read this to... when the big man says so! i hope that yall are still watchin me... Arigato Gozaimasu!!! (much thanks)

dude...

2005-11-06T10:35:00.000-05:00

Well, to all of ya'll who no that guy who hates absolutely everyone... just pray fer him... and for me. last wed. after visitation, i was talking to sam(finally) and we got into subjects of grieving matter. I was just talking about family and then i just started to weep, cause she's hurt me really bad. I wanna thank sam publically for bein there and helping me through those ruff times(as everyone else as well...).dani,joe,taylor,rw,dan da man, raysheta, and stuff.

To ALL my friends- Me Philosophy

2005-10-29T19:21:00.000-04:00

'There's only a couple people in this world that you REALLY connect with. In that time period of connection, you must beseech this connection to the point of conviction of YOUR self-richousssnesss and there happiness. You must also altercate your feelings of pity and trust, and cannot seclude yourself.'-DJ
I have gone through many books about philosophy on life, friends, etc, and this is what i've come up with. There are some people who try to care, and really care. I hope that all ya'll readers find those someones... and don't be to hard and people, cause god loves us ALL.

ummmmmmmmmmmmmm... ya

2005-10-29T19:14:00.000-04:00

Well, there's really nothing to talk about... I ,m moving approx. march-may, which really stinks. I wish i could stay in ga for graduation, but me pappy's in the army. I'm learning elvish and japanese right now. My elvish n.name is "aina rochben"-"Holy Knight". I feel that's what all us christians should be, a warrior in the army of God...HOOAH!!!

I'm sorry

2005-10-27T17:32:00.000-04:00

I just wanted to apologize to the people who really cared about me: My mom, family, church, rachel, Joe(yoshi), sam, dan, danielle, and RW... Thanks for bein there even when i was down. Especially my mom and sam. Ya'll rule!!!
Ps. I won't be able to blog so often so...

Well... I'm kinda happy...

2005-10-24T21:25:00.000-04:00

Well,
The girl of my dreams(thomd) Is back from v-ball, but I still find myself down. At school I have no one to connect with AT ALL. Even the person I used to Really connect with on levels no one can is apparently busy every time I come about them... so in other words... life sucks. I'm just tired emotionnally and spiritually alone... and all ya'll who "u guess" are my friends... u can shove off to. Apparently u didn't care now... so don't start a front. As for my "friend..." I just don't care anymore, they can just shove off. the only people I REALLY care about are my friend, g-friend, and god. So... in conclusion... if I hurt your fellings, I'M nOt SORRY!!! AND I NEVER WILL BE.

PS:To my so called "friend", I hope your obsession crashes and burns, and when you need someone, I hope your soul is tortured into madness and you sink into the water of your idiocy and mal-faith in your "friends", just like simon simon(peter). Shove off america

PSS:From russia with love... Bond, James Bond.

So lonely

2005-10-21T16:47:00.000-04:00

Well, my girl went on a volleyball trip... man i miss her. But I sure can't wait till she gets back! That atta hold off y'LL FER A DAY OR SEE. Till the nextr post.
From DJ with love

The verdict... she likes me!!!

2005-10-18T20:28:00.000-04:00

Well... to all my viewers and such... thanx fer the support. some of you still don't know who I like... if you don't... just come up to me and ask me and i'll tell you. Well this special lady likes me too. Even though today(tuesday fer all yall dum people{sam... you should get that little joke}) was very hectic and I wasn't myself... I'll tell you why. Over the weekend, I was thinkin about all my sorrows and such, and came to the conclusion that all reality ever brings for ME is grief. If I live in the world of nothingness(daydreaming)... I will have no goals and will not be dissatisfied. Ya, I know that's stupid, but it's better than bein' mad at everyone, neh? So... if you see me starin off in space and thinkin... or maybe just riting my famous poems. One word of advice(And this is tha NICEST way to say it)... SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!! By ther way... if you took offense to this comment(Cause I know some of ya'll emotional bomns will!!!)... GET OVER IT!!! AND YA DAN... I DO GO THROUGH MY DAY LIKE THIS... SO TO ALL YA"LL NOSY SELFS... SHOVE OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Poetry of the ELEMENTS-water

2005-10-17T16:11:00.000-04:00

Sink or Swim

By:DJ/Inspiration:God

This substance covbers most our land,

It's the answer to almost anything, but can also be as bad as quik sand.

Back in the day it killed us all but a family and animals with heart,

But now we're so dum all we put is coke in our shopping cart.

So maybe you should get in tune and start to run the right path,

And remeber this magnifacent element when you take a bath.

We all are mistaken in our ways of disrespecting God's creation,

so maybe you'll remeber it on a certain vocation,

of when you burn yourself and call out it's name,

But it won't come and you'll be the blame.

this poetry that I have created is trying to say that we have no idea of how much we just ignore this resource.

Poet of the week:Стивэн Флорзс(Stevo)/Poetry:Loneliness

2005-10-15T19:02:00.000-04:00

Loneliness

One may think that they know what loneliness is
But what the junk do they know
Loneliness isn’t being rejected,
Or not having any friends.

Being alone is hard to endure
Loneliness is losing loved ones and not being cared for.
When you act as if I don’t exist,
I feel like crying,
Or maybe dying.

I’ve been to darkness and I’ve come back,
I’m half dead and not all that well.
You may think I’m being mean,
You may think that I don’t care.

This is true
For most of you
So how can you be alone?When I’m caring for you.

Poetry of the elments-FIRE

2005-10-15T17:06:00.000-04:00

The helpful burn

By:DJ/Inspiration:GOD

You look into the flames,

And you know that no one can tame,

This helpful beast so strong.

You think that it may be good, or nothing wrong,

But inside you've had your doubts.

You know that you can't win this bout,

Of wits determining skill.

You know you can't live until,

You've finnally decided to make comprimise with on another.

Give and take,

Make or break.

You know the stakes,

You both aren't fakes.

You need eachother to survive,

'Cause you know inside that you thrive,

Off this force that unstoppable from inside,

It's as strong as the tsunami tide.

You live together in constant relief to have one another.

One feeds off the heat while the other feeds him food like a brother.

This migtht have made no sense to some of you, But what i was trying to get at was how on the outside world we have the tangible fire, and inside our soul, these words also explain that fire for things that you might have. Think about it. 'Till the next element...

Mo poetry fer me MUGAS

2005-10-15T16:53:00.000-04:00

Waiting Too Long
Waking up far past the break of dawn

The hour is to late, We've missed the morning funWhat fun is that?

Daytime joy is nothing spectacular

Nothing better then sleeping.
We open our eyes to see hot days falling down upon us

And just lay waiting, lazing, boredom infests us

A step outside, the humidity blasting

Persperation falls to the earth, lapsing
So many activities, none which inspire

Leaving us mindless, forcing us to retire

Away to bed, Away from ourselves

Away to another day much the same
We all eventually bring ourselves to realize that these days are limited

These days which we have so fragilely thrown away

All until we all have noticed that school will start the very next day...

Bowling...FA LIFE

2005-10-15T00:29:00.000-04:00

Well, I'm really dissapionted sam couldn't come on the church bowling trip... But I do have good news! And no... It's not about GEICHO!!! I beat rachel on our last game by one point... but that girl sure is good for a backward bowler! Well, It was pretty good preaching too! I wrote my first song(it;ll be finished completely soon) and it's pretty good?! Well, suzanna(sp?) thanks fer bein so nice(u'll see this from someone if they tell you me blog!!! I've now hit a crisis ... this is why I havn't told u peeps who i liked yet... I'm kinda torn between 2 girls, and they're both younger than me... I think one likes me... and the other is like a goddess(they both are if ure wondrin) so... leave advice in comments(violet, frank, dani, becca's, and all elders) man, I'll tell ya'll one thing that you might want to know, BEIN' A TEEN BASTINKS LIKE DOOOOKIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THANX

2005-10-13T17:18:00.000-04:00

Man... I'd just like to thank all the people and friends who have been ther for me. Ya'll know who you are. I still don't know if I should reviel that mystery girl to me peeps yet... cause I dont want another catastrophy. I feel a lot better since you guys have been there fer me. By the way... the only reason I didn't go to the prayer meeting(fer all you peeps who thought I was slacking!) I was tryin to stick wid me friend sam cuz he didn't feel so hot! SO HA! AND YOU CAN QOUTE ME ON THAT ONE 2 THEM FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YA'll (rachel, both rebeccas, dan, sam, taylor, danielle,sheda,Jennifer,Leilani, Amy, Monica, Jessica (B!), Ashley, Tim,

and all ya'll other losers!!!
2 WORDS

FA LIFE!!!

LIVE or FRY

2005-10-11T21:32:00.000-04:00

Well,
tonight I was just at my churches revival... and heard this AWESOME sermon about the rapture, trib., etc. But I jus nealy wept thinking bout my family in WA State who aren't saved. Keep them in yer prayers...