To ALL my friends- Me Philosophy
'There's only a couple people in this world that you REALLY connect with. In that time period of connection, you must beseech this connection to the point of conviction of YOUR self-richousssnesss and there happiness. You must also altercate your feelings of pity and trust, and cannot seclude yourself.'-
DJI have gone through many books about philosophy on life, friends, etc, and this is what i've come up with. There are some people who try to care, and really care. I hope that all ya'll readers find those someones... and don't be to hard and people, cause god loves us ALL.
ummmmmmmmmmmmmm... ya
Well, there's really nothing to talk about... I ,m moving approx. march-may, which really stinks. I wish i could stay in ga for graduation, but me pappy's in the army. I'm learning elvish and japanese right now. My elvish n.name is "aina rochben"-"Holy Knight". I feel that's what all us christians should be, a warrior in the army of God...
HOOAH!!!
I'm sorry
I just wanted to apologize to the people who really cared about me: My mom, family, church, rachel, Joe(yoshi), sam, dan, danielle, and RW... Thanks for bein there even when i was down. Especially my mom and sam. Ya'll rule!!!
Ps. I won't be able to blog so often so...
Well... I'm kinda happy...
Well,
The girl of my dreams(thomd) Is back from v-ball, but I still find myself down. At school I have no one to connect with AT ALL. Even the person I used to Really connect with on levels no one can is apparently busy every time I come about them... so in other words... life sucks. I'm just tired emotionnally and spiritually alone... and all ya'll who "u guess" are my friends... u can shove off to. Apparently u didn't care now... so don't start a front. As for my "friend..." I just don't care anymore, they can just shove off. the only people I REALLY care about are my friend, g-friend, and god. So... in conclusion... if I hurt your fellings,
I'M nOt SORRY!!! AND I NEVER WILL BE. PS:To my so called "friend", I hope your obsession crashes and burns, and when you need someone, I hope your soul is tortured into madness and you sink into the water of your idiocy and mal-faith in your "friends", just like simon simon(peter). Shove off americaPSS:From russia with love... Bond, James Bond.
So lonely
Well, my girl went on a volleyball trip... man i miss her. But I sure can't wait till she gets back! That atta hold off y'LL FER A DAY OR SEE. Till the nextr post.
From DJ with love
The verdict... she likes me!!!
Well... to all my viewers and such... thanx fer the support. some of you still don't know who I like... if you don't... just come up to me and ask me and i'll tell you. Well this special lady likes me too. Even though today(tuesday fer all yall
dum people{sam... you should get that little
joke}) was very hectic and I wasn't myself... I'll tell you why. Over the weekend, I was thinkin about all my sorrows and such, and came to the conclusion that all reality ever brings for ME is grief. If I live in the world of nothingness(daydreaming)... I will have no goals and will not be dissatisfied. Ya, I know that's stupid, but it's better than bein' mad at everyone, neh? So... if you see me starin off in space and thinkin... or maybe just riting my famous poems. One word of advice(And this is tha NICEST way to say it)...
SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!! By ther way... if you took offense to this comment(Cause I know some of ya'll emotional bomns will!!!)... GET OVER IT!!! AND YA DAN... I DO GO THROUGH MY DAY LIKE THIS... SO TO ALL YA"LL NOSY SELFS... SHOVE OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Poetry of the ELEMENTS-water
Sink or Swim
By:DJ/Inspiration:God
This substance covbers most our land,
It's the answer to almost anything, but can also be as bad as quik sand.
Back in the day it killed us all but a family and animals with heart,
But now we're so dum all we put is coke in our shopping cart.
So maybe you should get in tune and start to run the right path,
And remeber this magnifacent element when you take a bath.
We all are mistaken in our ways of disrespecting God's creation,
so maybe you'll remeber it on a certain vocation,
of when you burn yourself and call out it's name,
But it won't come and you'll be the blame.
this poetry that I have created is trying to say that we have no idea of how much we just ignore this resource.
Poet of the week:Стивэн Флорзс(Stevo)/Poetry:Loneliness
Loneliness
One may think that they know what loneliness is
But what the junk do they know
Loneliness isn’t being rejected,
Or not having any friends.
Being alone is hard to endure
Loneliness is losing loved ones and not being cared for.
When you act as if I don’t exist,
I feel like crying,
Or maybe dying.
I’ve been to darkness and I’ve come back,
I’m half dead and not all that well.
You may think I’m being mean,
You may think that I don’t care.
This is true
For most of you
So how can you be alone?When I’m caring for you.
Poetry of the elments-FIRE
The helpful burn
By:DJ/Inspiration:GOD
You look into the flames,
And you know that no one can tame,
This helpful beast so strong.
You think that it may be good, or nothing wrong,
But inside you've had your doubts.
You know that you can't win this bout,
Of wits determining skill.
You know you can't live until,
You've finnally decided to make comprimise with on another.
Give and take,
Make or break.
You know the stakes,
You both aren't fakes.
You need eachother to survive,
'Cause you know inside that you thrive,
Off this force that unstoppable from inside,
It's as strong as the tsunami tide.
You live together in constant relief to have one another.
One feeds off the heat while the other feeds him food like a brother.
This migtht have made no sense to some of you, But what i was trying to get at was how on the outside world we have the tangible fire, and inside our soul, these words also explain that fire for things that you might have. Think about it. 'Till the next element...
Mo poetry fer me MUGAS
Waiting Too Long
Waking up far past the break of dawn
The hour is to late, We've missed the morning funWhat fun is that?
Daytime joy is nothing spectacular
Nothing better then sleeping.
We open our eyes to see hot days falling down upon us
And just lay waiting, lazing, boredom infests us
A step outside, the humidity blasting
Persperation falls to the earth, lapsing
So many activities, none which inspire
Leaving us mindless, forcing us to retire
Away to bed, Away from ourselves
Away to another day much the same
We all eventually bring ourselves to realize that these days are limited
These days which we have so fragilely thrown away
All until we all have noticed that school will start the very next day...
Bowling...FA LIFE
Well, I'm really dissapionted sam couldn't come on the church bowling trip... But I do have good news! And no... It's not about GEICHO!!! I beat rachel on our last game by one point... but that girl sure is good for a backward bowler! Well, It was pretty good preaching too! I wrote my first song(it;ll be finished completely soon) and it's pretty good?! Well, suzanna(sp?) thanks fer bein so nice(u'll see this from someone if they tell you me blog!!! I've now hit a crisis ... this is why I havn't told u peeps who i liked yet... I'm kinda torn between 2 girls, and they're both younger than me... I think one likes me... and the other is like a goddess(they both are if ure wondrin) so... leave advice in comments(violet, frank, dani, becca's, and all elders) man, I'll tell ya'll one thing that you might want to know, BEIN' A TEEN BASTINKS LIKE DOOOOKIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THANX
Man... I'd just like to thank all the people and friends who have been ther for me. Ya'll know who you are. I still don't know if I should reviel that mystery girl to me peeps yet... cause I dont want another catastrophy. I feel a lot better since you guys have been there fer me. By the way... the only reason I didn't go to the prayer meeting(fer all you peeps who thought I was slacking!) I was tryin to stick wid me friend sam cuz he didn't feel so hot! SO HA! AND YOU CAN QOUTE ME ON THAT ONE 2 THEM FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YA'll (rachel, both rebeccas, dan, sam, taylor, danielle,sheda,Jennifer,Leilani, Amy, Monica, Jessica (B!), Ashley, Tim,
and all ya'll other losers!!!
2 WORDS
FA LIFE!!!
LIVE or FRY
Well,
tonight I was just at my churches revival... and heard this AWESOME sermon about the rapture, trib., etc. But I jus nealy wept thinking bout my family in WA State who aren't saved. Keep them in yer prayers...
The flipside of my soul... PART 2-Happiness and Joy
WOW
By:Def Jeff/Inspiration:MY SOUL
Your eyes are as lakes on a clear summer's day.
Your Heart so pure it makes my mind begin to sway.
Your hair as streams of the softest, lightest fabric.
I have to look at you twice to make sure my mind isn't playing tricks.
Your face as the palet of the greatest painter in the world,
His imagination must be must be incredible to make my mind start to twirl.
You've got the spirit and the mind to top it all off,
Your being alone makes my body turn to broth.
I wish I could show you that I'm not all flesh and bones,
It's just when I see you my mind completely turns to stone.
I wish I could say I've met someone as pretty as you,
I wish you could say that you also like me too.
But hey, no worries on this simple matter of HighSkool hearts,
I'd just like to thank you for bein' so beautiful and so amazingly smart.
Maybe someday you'll meet your Romeo and I'll meet my Juliet,
And then we'll remember eachother when both our lives our set...
The certain person who reads this will know who they are... and to all the others; This might depict one of your lives experiences too.
The flipside of my soul... PART 1-Anger and Despair
I Need Some Time Alone
By:Def Jeff/Inspiration:MY SOUL
I don't care about this place,
I'm really mad, suggest you get out my face.
I don't need this, especially right now.
You know I don't want this and that I won't allow,
For you to bother me with these emotional inconsistencies.
I should'nt have to bother with your dum insecurities.
I need some space alone.
I think that I have shown,that we Need to take a break.
This is for both our minds sake.
Go bother someone Else with your worries,
I'm not the kind of person that jumps up and hurries,
To find the cure for everyone's life.
I need a lot more peace and a lot less strife.
Inside my soul I want to scream,
I'm not your friend or on your team!
You need to stop before I start.
If you were careful and very smart,
You'd leave me now and forever alone.
You may care, but my heart is as hard as stone.
I know we're friends, I know you care.
I just don't think our lives would be fair,
For one to show kindness and generosity,
And the other to show nothing, this would be my plea.
Maybe in the future you just might find,
That special someone that's one of a kind.
They'll be loyal, sweet, and nice.
Unlike me who cares less than a gram of rice...
Poet of the week: William shakespeare/ Poem:The Pheonix and the Turtle
About every week (starting today) there will be a poet/poetry writing...
William Shakespeare (1564–1616). The Oxford Shakespeare: Poems. 1914. The Phoenix and the Turtle
LET the bird of loudest lay,
On the sole Arabian tree,
Herald sad and trumpet be,
To whose sound chaste wings obey.
But thou shrieking harbinger,
5Foul precurrer of the fiend,
Augur of the fever’s end,
To this troop come thou not near.
From this session interdict
Every fowl of tyrant wing,
10Save the eagle, feather’d king:
Keep the obsequy so strict.
Let the priest in surplice white
That defunctive music can,
Be the death-divining swan,
15Lest the requiem lack his right.
And thou treble-dated crow,
That thy sable gender mak’st
With the breath thou giv’st and tak’st,
’Mongst our mourners shalt thou go.
20
Here the anthem doth commence:
Love and constancy is dead;
Phoenix and the turtle fled
In a mutual flame from hence.
So they lov’d, as love in twain
25Had the essence but in one;
Two distincts, division none:
Number there in love was slain.
Hearts remote, yet not asunder;
Distance, and no space was seen
30’Twixt the turtle and his queen:
But in them it were a wonder.
So between them love did shine,
That the turtle saw his right
Flaming in the phoenix’ sight;
35Either was the other’s mine.
Property was thus appall’d,
That the self was not the same;
Single nature’s double name
Neither two nor one was call’d.
40
Reason, in itself confounded,
Saw division grow together;
To themselves yet either neither,
Simple were so well compounded,
That it cried, ‘How true a twain
45Seemeth this concordant one!
Love hath reason, reason none,
If what parts can so remain.’
Whereupon it made this threne
To the phoenix and the dove,
50Co-supremes and stars of love,
As chorus to their tragic scene.
THRENOS Beauty, truth, and rarity,
Grace in all simplicity,
Here enclos’d in cinders lie.
55
Death is now the phoenix’ nest;
And the turtle’s loyal breast
To eternity doth rest,
Leaving no posterity:
’Twas not their infirmity,
60It was married chastity.
Truth may seem, but cannot be;
Beauty brag, but ’tis not she;
Truth and beauty buried be.
To this urn let those repair
65That are either true or fair;
For these dead birds sigh a prayer. This poem really hit home... I hope you can get somethin' outta it 2.
LOSERs ROOL
Well, I'm in something called the losers club... I'm kinda like the congregation(me, sam, and Mr.Chambers). Well, The point of our "sudo" gang (non-violent) is to help others and hate the stewpid "haystacks" FA LIFE!!! the cooel thing about it is that almost anyone can join... besides our rivals. We have no self esteem and the lowest goals in the UNIVERSE!!! That's cooel cause it makes being succesful in life a whole lot easier! So to all ya'll who read this... comment if you want to join(males only... were working on a female-counterpart gang at the moment!) just comment and we'll probably be able to inagurate you(up to my supieriors?!). but you have a very gooooood chance... soooo ta ta fa now. Poetry will be coming shortly!!!
LOSERS RUUUUUUUULE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well... they lost
The boston Red Sox lost 3 games to none to the
white sox!!! It's crazy... AND I HATE IT!!! Thanks for the comments guys, ya'll are my light and my motivation. By the way... ther'll be 2 new poems 2nite... hope U enjoy. Peace out!!!
My life in a nutshell
Today I was so mad. Mentally rejected by the Girl I thought I liked... now she won't even talk to my sorry self...
MAN this stinks like DOOKIE!!!I just see all these other happy couples and try to grasp the meaning of love. Well ladies and Gents... LOVE SUCKS!!! I hate this stupid concept that God is apparently trting to signal me with. By the way violet, email me who you thoght I liked... the adress is on my profile. I just felt like kicking some boo'ta today, thas why I could'nt wait to spar... I had so much enrgy rapped up I could break a slab of concrete w/ my pinkie(J/K)! ANd also to me freind leilani... if you read this, I'm sorry from the deepest pits of my retarted pitiful soul to lose a friend like U. I'm sorry, and if anyone who is friends w/ her reads this and sees her, pass the message please. I feel like an idiot to make the same mistake I did last year, and I know i'm a retarded love monger! I jus want to get the jealosi away from my heart. Pray fer me ... (tears)
Me Diary
I would like to publically apologize to yoshi for my rudeness on someone else's turf, seriously. I would also like 2 no who unknown is... and people please quit using anonymous!!! I just wish I could grab the courage out of somewhere to tell the Girl I like how I feel... she's a year younger fer all yall who er wondrin. I would also like to askm f4er prayer about this girl problem I'm havin, that maybe got could help somehow, or throw me down a miracle or somethin dude! But anyways... sam... when u read this , I was wondrin if u could give me lessons on wed. w/ u no what(I'm to embarressed to say!)!
well...................MUCH LOVE @ ME PEEPS.......(again...lol!)
YAY!!
Well, this weeks definately beean a hectic week... But, I'm aight. I'm just glad it's over, AMEN?!
I appreciate my friends and others visiting this blog, You guys have been the light of my life! We lost the soccer game(I play goalie)... but hey, I even got scored on by me own teamate. That wasa fun experience! For all ya'll who are wondering who that special soome one is... you'll find out soon enough.
